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: french_fries_95; August 12th, 17:18

Current Location:: Australia, Melbourne

Current Mood:: cranky

Current Music:: Deliver Us From Evil 5:58 Bullet For My Valentine

So i have hockey training in like half an hour... but i thought i would jump on and tell you that my day was good and great and bad all at the same time... i got 100% on my maths test (open book) and my teacher seems to like me. i dont know if thats a good thing or a bad thing.. i have homework soo i should get that done.. i started another story, and i think it will take prospects from my life and friends lifes and create a whole new life.

well dad will be home soon and im not ready.

Talk soon i guess.
caitie.

Tags: hockey, maths tests, school

hello believe it or not im still here.

: french_fries_95; August 10th, 21:31

Current Location:: somewhere in all this mess.

Current Mood:: irritated

Current Music:: 3 doors down - somesong

i think you miss life the most when you dont have one... of corse i have one but i realised lateley it evolves around only a few things. Hockey, my family, a few of my friends and josh. i cant actually socialise without him it finally dawned on me that i have no idea what to do when he isnt around. my gosh it is scary and hockey is almost fnished. im scared that im going to fall of the face of the earth soon. i cant seem to hold myself upright. oh well i just finished two major assignments and i still have two more to do. oh well they can wait until tomorrow... im a little wrried that caz hasnt posted on her journal lately normally she is the one who posts more often than me... well she still has posted more than me but thats not the point. your not at school lately are you still alive???

better head off to bed, night beautifuls.
oh and caz i sort of forgave Kristy.....

Tags: assignments, caz, courtney, dying., earth, family, hockey, josh, life, school

life, love and sorrow.

: french_fries_95; July 16th, 16:12

Current Location:: in a chair.

Current Mood:: hyper

Current Music:: You beking with me - Taylor Swift

so i have this wacky idea im gonna start another book.. im going to keep going with the one im writting now but im going to start a new one. and riight here right now.

Life, love and sorrow.

I was sitting on the swing, listening to my ipod it was about 3pm and i was supposed to be home by now but i couldnt seem to put the ipod down. my sister had borrowed it and she had put high school musical on plus a whole heap of disney stuff. This was 1 year ago exactly today we had sat there just before her singing audiotion and put them on, she was going to make it big she was so convinced and she was good but what made her even better was that she had drive. all of us could sing and i used to be able to play guitar and my brother could play keyboard, but she was the one who had a dream. she wanted us to be a band and she kept us going even when we were sick of her.

She aced her audition. i had stayed up the back and watched every single girl and boy come up and none of them had what she did. she had the voice and the confidence. I snuck out before anyone noticed me in there. The family was waiting in the foyer and there were so many people waiting. Both my parents had no musical skill whats so ever. so for them to have three children and them all be musical talented was a fluke.

About ten mins later she walked out with the biggest smile on her face she saw us gave a squeel and ran towards us.she gave me the biggest hug i think was possible and pulled my ipod out of her pocket. as she handed it to me she explained what they had said to her "Well they want me to come back and said that i have a very good chance of making the lead. but.." she gave me a sideward glace and turned a little red. "They said that i have to choose something a bit more grown up than disney."

I had said the same words to her, i choked back an i told you so and just hugged her.."Im so proud of you!" mum took Alyson and Andrew and i went with dad. We were behind my mum the whole time on our way to the restarunt. there was only one train crossing and it happened to be the only crossing that they got caught on. they couldnt move the doors jammed and at first dad and i thought they were joking until we saw the train, i saw my mother my sister and my brither die that day. And ever scince i havent been myself..

I think considering that i just wrote that off the top of my head that isnt too bad.

caitie.

Tags: life, love and sorrow. new story. aylson. andr

I cant get a break! - i love him!

: french_fries_95; July 15th, 16:38

Current Location:: somewhere in my head but you are going to have to find me!

Current Mood:: uncomfortable

Current Music:: same girl. R.Kelly and Usher.

So most of you know me im not a bad person most of the time! am i? I normally do the right thing so why cant i just firgive her.. i have come so close in the last two days and true Britt is gone and i seem to be the only one that is holding onto this whole thing. but i keep thinkoing what if that was me what if she said that stuff to me??? - i would have probably smacked her one! - and i have thought about punching her but truth is im scared that if she retaliates that i will come off second best! Aghhh! why did they make being a teenager so fcking hard???

well now im training three nights a week for hockey and playing two games a weekend if one of my teams dont have a bye! and in doing this i have given my parents yet another thing to threaten me with. i cant win.

school is great and shit all at the same time! im a loner in maths now because my stupid co-ordinator decided to move me, But on the up side im enjoying english now and im having fun in most of my other classes.. Caz thats probably because of you.

urrmmm i dont have much else to write.

Me and josh are going well. I found my year 7 journal the other day and i wrote some of the most bitchyest things.. hahahaa. well i was young back then i know better now.......NOT!!!!!......hahahahaa. i have been thinking, i have been told so many times that when you tell a guy you love them they will run as far as they can to get away from you. well in my case he fights with me and says stuff like i love you more and he wont let it go either... im am so confussed...

Well i guess because i am on a role i might as well write some more... lets talk issy!

Hahaha i can never seem to win with her i always do something wrong and i dont mean it! she is always like "Oh i shouldnt be talking to you right now." and im over it. sure i love her and all but i just dont need her shit at the moment.. and i cant believe that Rose is pregnant!!! i mean seriously!

well i have ranted for way tooo long! im going to check the hockey updates! Court me and you this weekend im gonna make it happen!

Well love you all.
caitie.

Tags: caz, courtney, hockey, issy, josh, life, school, year 7

please, please just stop time so i can catch up

: french_fries_95; July 8th, 22:57

Current Location:: in bed

Current Mood:: confused

Current Music:: now or never- high school musical.....its on random

Im looking forward to tomorrow. but i just want to be able to rest and relax everything seems to be stuck on fast forward. nothing can be slow and relaxed i spent the afternoon with josh yesterday, he was sick and had said to me that he wasnt going to kiss me. he so couldnt resist. well that and i sorta pushed myself at him. lol not in the bad way ... i miss life when i had nothing to do and i could just relax and chill have time with my friends and not have to be battleing with them to find time together. oh and courtney, i have a hockey game on sunday night.. thats another thing some of my frineds find anoying about me.. yea issy im talking bout her, my life evolvs around hockey. im always checking if i have it and what time, my social life works around it. if it is possible it lann around it.

The oly thing keeping me there is the fact that i loveit. im going back to two nights a week training. and two games a weekend giving neither of my teams hav a bye. aghh i played four games in six days im sort of seeing it as a job that isnt paying me. i used to do it because it made dad happy now i do it because i love it and i dont want to dissapoint him, life is so hard..

Oh and James thanks for the advice.....i just realized james wont reasd this, whoops but really i hope everyone has great friends because i know i do. way too many to write. but you know who you are... i should get back to writing. im re-writting this story agggggggain, its like the third time but i have to admit it does get bettdr each time i write it. and that is saying something. lol. oh well i guess i should sign off

Love you guys you keep me standing when life gets tough.
xcaitie.

Tags: friends, hockey., life, thought times

what a day.

: french_fries_95; May 26th, 15:30

Current Location:: in a chair.

Current Mood:: Not happy!

Current Music:: Im on a boat (mother fucker)

okay for the sake of not getting in trouble im changing names! - sorry if it doesnt make any sense

OKay so i have this friend (ex-friend) named Macy, and she came to our school i was frineds with her figured why not. she seemed nice enough and she is sometimes good to talk to, but she was nothing like my friends. so her first day at school i let her hang with me and my friends and she seems to get along. but then lunch time came and they are all talking about her. "Shes a bitch, i dont like her." so it all sorta went down hill from there.
someone got her number, and started texting her. i saved their asses too and i bet they dont even know it. if it hadn't been for me she would have gone to the co-ordinators ages ago. but then one of my mates named Bella she sent one text message. my other friend taylor and myself told her nomore! and she stopped after one. and then she got messages from this dude. saying "Your a hore. nobody likes you." and shit like that.
ANd then Bella had a go at her yesterday. and i yelled at her aswell. so she had nobody nobody really liked her, and lish and i were her only friends and i had yelled at her. so basicly she had nobody.
she walked off before i could appoligise. and i felt like shot thismorning so i took the day off.

I get a phone call from Bella today at lunch time. saying she just got suspended. for sending one text message! and she gave my name in to the co-ordinators so now i have to talk to them tomorrow. i felt bad for saying what i said to her, but she promised me she wouldnt go to the co-ordinators and she did.

So in conclusion (as my english teacher would say.) Macy is no longer my friend and better look out tomorrow. and poor bella is getting in trouble left, right and centre. and my mum thinks i should lie low. oh well. i guess in tough situations you find out who your real friends are.

xcaitie.

Tags: bella, hores, lish., macy, names, texts

How do we know when life throws us a curveball?

: french_fries_95; April 12th, 16:44

Current Location:: in a wall.

Current Mood:: blank

Current Music:: blame it on the boggie.

So i got thinking... i know my brain actually works for once. when life throws us a curveball how do we dodge it if we dont know its coming until it hits us right in the face... People i wanna know.

If you have any ideas comment..

oh and by the way Happy easter

xcaitie.
p.s should i pash him?

Tags: confused, curveballs, fridget., hurt, love, pain, pashing, snogging

Where to go?

: french_fries_95; April 5th, 11:21

Current Location:: somewhere i dont wanna be

Current Mood:: blah

Current Music:: Bones - the killers

I dont get how people can be sooo blind...

im bored and i just want to go back to bed but if i do that i cant go today, and for some unknown reason i just really wanna get out ofthe house!

i have it all to myself and all i wanna do is get out. im sick of being alone.

short but sweet i cant be fucked writing much today.

xcaitie.

Tags: boring, football, home, lyam., tired

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: french_fries_95; March 23rd, 16:28

Current Location:: on the land of think about what you do before you do it.

Current Mood:: blank

Current Music:: Big girls dont cry.

Im sorry Caz ... the talk we had today was helpful... if i had of realized you guys felt like that sooner i would have done something about it. I cherish your friendship so much and i really dont know what i would do with out you.

Today was a learning one and Tomorrow will be one i try my learnings!

Tags: caz, learn

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: french_fries_95; March 20th, 21:54

Current Location:: somewhere on earth

Current Mood:: annoyed

Current Music:: How can i be sure - The Young Rascals

I had almost ditched this whole thing thought why the fuck would i post something to the whole fucking syber space but what do you know im here and im ready to tell the whole world just how much i hate myself! lol jokes! but it has been a while!

Im so bored. my dad is watching some game where you throw a ball in all diffrent directions.. lol and my mum is sick so she is in bed! my sisters well i have no fucking idea where they are and i couldnt give a fuck either! chloe is this hormanal fucking hore! who will probably get pregnant at the age of 14 and screw up the whole rest of her life.... or she will secssed in everything and ill end up a freaking maid somewhere! alone!

aghhh. even better ill probably end up busking on a street for money!

i have to go and annoy the crap out of my dad maybe ill steel one of his beers and get drunk!

Love ya
:)Caitie!

Tags: oh my god!

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